As much as I'd been hoping he would, William did not arrive on the weekend! He's still comfortably (for him) lodged somewhere between my ribs and my pelvis.

I took Friday off and Monday was Memorial Day, so I had a very long weekend. Originally, I was supposed to rest and relax on Friday, but I wound up cleaning and doing miscellaneous chores on my feet the whole day. I did manage to get William's scrapbook pages done--that was very exciting! However, being up and about so much seemed to give me a permanent Braxton-Hicks contraction and my tummy was tight the whole day.

Same thing on Saturday morning, as we did some final cleanup for a brief visit from Mike & Carey & Matthew. Matthew is about 7 months old and is such a very happy baby! He's adorable and you can tell that once he's able to crawl, he will take off and start getting into everything. Right now, he's able to wiggle around on his stomach and likes to play with his toys. Hopefully William will be a happy and pleasant baby too, in which case it will be a real pleasure to interact and play with him.

The rest of the weekend was almost excessively relaxing: Darryl & I just lay on the bed, reading. Having been sort of "go go go" for so many weeks and weekends, trying to get everything ready and cleaned up, it was a bit of a shock to have virtually nothing to do!

I must admit to having been somewhat mopey and complainy over the weekend, though. My abdomen was quite uncomfortable and I guess I have heartburn despite the Zantac. Darryl takes all of this in stride, though, and he is being very helpful around the house. Today at work I felt quite uncomfortable and heartburny as well: I decided that Friday (June 1) will be my last day at work, pending what the doctor says at my appointment on Thursday--if I have made no progress and it seems like William will take forever to arrive, then I may consider working another week. It would be awful to sit around for 3 weeks at home if William decides to be 2 weeks late.

But now I'm in week 38--can you believe it!? I am so anxiously awaiting William's arrival. I don't know how I'll feel when he's actually born or what I will do (I feel like I won't know what to do), but I really want to see him and, also, I am ready to try and regain some kind of control over my body again. I know I should appreciate this last little bit of time that Darryl & I have together, just the two of us--the ability to do pretty much whatever we want, whenever we want without worrying about a little being, but I find I'm just so impatient! :-) I think it's mostly because people on the pregnancy.org bulletin board who are also due in June have begun having their children, and so that makes me think that William could/should arrive anytime. Whereas, if I were not on that board, I would have expected William closer to his due date and perhaps not had as much crazy anticipation as I do now. My whole weekend (since I was convinced, somehow, that he would be born on the weekend) was spent thinking every moment "when will my water break?", "will it break now?", "is he going to arrive today?", "when are my contractions going to start?" :-) This is probably very silly, I know. The waiting is the hardest thing, to me.

I'm trying to be less anticipatory now. I have to really realize that William is not going to be born until he is ready to be born, and that could be any time within the next 3.5 weeks or so. The time will fly by, regardless of how many or how few days it still takes, and I will simply have to try and enjoy the time I have now to get some things done around the house or yard that I might not otherwise get done. William: we love you!!!!

Week 38

"Your baby has really fattened up. He likely weighs between 6 and 7 1/2 pounds now, and is between 19 and 20 inches long. He has a firm grasp, which you'll soon feel when he wraps his little hand around your pinky. His organs are fully developed and in place, but his lungs and brain will continue to mature right through childhood Wondering what color your baby's eyes will be? If he's born with brown eyes, they'll likely stay brown. If he's born with steel gray or dark blue eyes, they may stay gray or blue or turn green, hazel, or brown by the time he's 9 months old."

-- from: www.babycenter.com